Something I've kept rather close to my chest up until now was the little scare I got. Of all days, my wedding day while getting ready (in the shower) I found a lump quite by accident in my breast.
I do remember from time to time to do self-checks and so I knew right away that this was something new, and not 'typical' in the way it felt. What a shitty thing to find on your wedding day, right?
So right around the same time work was insanely busy making getting in touch with my doctor pretty much impossible, plus to be honest I think I was kind of hoping that the lump might go away, but it didn't and so after a few weeks I took the first step, hightailing it out of work and managing to see my doctor before his clinic closed for the day. He didn't say much but scheduled me for a mammogram and echography (for both boobs, just to be safe.)
Walking around waiting for the day of your appointment thinking you might have something that could kill you in your chest is certainly something that can mess with you, but I made it to the day, and fortunately it was nothing to be concerned about. The doctor did explain to me what it was, but of course since it was in French and I was pretty much not listening quite as well after he said it wasn't serious, I can't say I was attentive enough to translate for you now. I was kind of just in a moment of relief while paying further attention to make sure that though it wasn't deadly that it wasn't even something remotely serious either. Which it wasn't (phew.) Something to do with glands of the lactation system. But he assured me I'd done the right thing in checking, because he sometimes sees young ladies who think "It's nothing", until it's a little too late and they realize it is something. So here's your PSA from me: Check 'em from time to time. Even if it's not the perfect time of the month to do so, do it when you remember. You may one day be glad you took the time to get to know yourself well enough that you can recognize "something different" early on.
And PS - Mammograms really aren't painful. Uncomfortable, ok, yeah, but not really painful.
Also, interesting fact - a breast exam here consists of you standing while the doctor kind of jiggles your breasts as he goes through the checking pattern, mine was seated with his head at about... oh, breast-level I'd say. So that was a bit of an odd moment. I must say compared to the less lively check-method of my doctor back home, I was surprised and had to wonder if this was really legit. Mind you, I suppose it makes the doctor's job more... fun?
So yes, there, as far as I know I'm not slated for early demise. There will be more summary and sporadic blog entries to come, Huzzah!
Sunday, January 19, 2014
Things have changed, stuff has happened.
Boyfriend got offered an amazing work assignment abroad, and we decided it'd be stupid to say no to the opportunity, so abroad he went.
I followed, (so I suppose I did escape for a bit) settling in nearby with my sister's family. 6 months with family might drive some of you nuts, but it was totally awesome for me. I'd missed them SO much, and it was so great to have the luxury of time, to just hang out and have continuity to events, conversations, etc. That and when boyfriend had time off he could be there too :)
We came back here to Belgeland, and it was as though it had gone by in a blink. Things here have been pretty intense since. I got hired by a big ol' chocolate company where I currently work as a chocolatier in R&D. It's pretty amazing (and sadly for the blog highly confidential.) So that's pretty much all I can say about it!
The boy and I got married! Well, first we got engaged right around the time I wrote the last entry, and then engaged ourselves in the necessary paper-chase to be allowed to get married here. (That time abroad spent with family was also quite useful for chasing down the necessary papers.) When I think about how much we've evolved as a team in the past 2 years particularly, I'm really happy. It's not something I shared much of on the blog (probably because I started respecting his privacy a bit more,) but fights are quite rare, and when things do flare up it no longer feels like the world has been turned upside down and inside out, it feels like two partners frustrated, trying to solve the misunderstanding. We totally want to get old and crotchety together, and so that's what we're working on. As long as nobody kicks the bucket prematurely, I'm fairly sure we'll get there.
As for the rest, it can wait for other days and other entries. Life is very busy right now, and keeping things in balance is certainly the challenge of late, so I'll be keeping it kind of bite size and sporadic around here I think.
Funny how so much can be summed up in just a few phrases.
Posted by Jessica at 13:02