Monday, July 27, 2009
Thursday, July 23, 2009
So here I am, still staring down through the cellophane at that big scary hole, while my mind rolls up it's sleeves a little bit further and tries singing lullabyes to my heart. "Go to sleep and don't look too closely at this part. It's not for delicate things like you, my fragile heart."
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
But I'm still looking.
Look at me go.
Monday, July 13, 2009
Friday, July 10, 2009
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Am almost done registering with all the interim agencies in Liège (14 so far,) after hitting up the Boulevard de la Sauvenière again on Monday. I think there are 3 or 4 more, and I'll try to get 'em tomorrow. The crap bit of it all is that in Belgium, students jobs are subsidized by the government. This means that it's a significant bargain for the employer to hire a student when they can, and right now... well, there are zillions of students wanting jobs. All the guys I've spoken with in the agencies have told me that I have two disadvantages on my side and one advantage. Disadvantages = I'm only here for a year, and I'm up against the students right now, which makes me a significantly less appealing investment for an employer to make. Advantage = I have patisserie and chocolate skills and experience, and there are not enough people to fill the need. Basically I've been told that if I can wait until September... maybe I'll find something then. What fun. Because, yeah, employers are going to feel so much better about hiring me if I can only hang around for 6 months.
As for the rest, I'm feeling very tired. A bit like a hamster with blisters who's trying to keep walking on what seems like a treadmill that goes nowhere.
I'm keeping my distance a bit from people for the moment, as dealing with their drama (and their beer,) is really very draining. I just don't have the energy to humour them listen intently and try to decipher what they are saying to me, and just trying to keep my momentum and motivation is challenging some days when life requires so much frikkin' pushing, all the time. So, I'm saving my energy for that..survival mode I guess.
Incidentally, I'm down to my last 100 Euro of the funds I set aside for trying to do this thing... If I manage to finish that off, I suppose that would be the time I should be looking at getting a plane ticket and heading home with a big imaginary red letter "L" blinking on my forehead and a "FAIL" stamp in my passport. :(